But at the same time, I think about how awesome it would be if you worked everything out.

But God, I am 22. Don't you think that is old enough yet? I know, I have things I need to work on still...like being more disciplined and motivated and better with my finances, getting into the habit of cooking...I think self-control temper-wise isn't such a big problem anymore- THANK YOU. Okay, so I looked at that list, and I still DO have so much to work on.

But God, I've seen so many people with someone and they are less ready than I am. True, they're often in these relationships that are headed no where but an eventual breakup- not headed to marriage. But STILL God, I am getting tired of being alone. I know, I know, YOU should be my first love. And I'm working on that. But God, isn't it time YET at least for ONE close guy friend?? And yeah, I know, I mean that one in particular I would like to have as a friend. But you see, the way I figure it, is that we need to be friends for at least a year or so before anything could happen...which would be plenty of time to work on all those things. Please??

If you're not going to work on this now, please just take this desire away from me.