4/04/04 † 2:54 p.m. SAYING GOODBYE TO WORRY

PRAISE GOD, I am finally at peace about the whole guy thing I have been posting about for awhile. I am not going to email this guy. I am going to wait. I know many of you have said I can't just sit and wait for God to work things out- and as hard as it is, that is EXACTLY what I am going to do. Because I can not think of a way to send him an email without it coming out that I like/liked him, and since I don't believe in dating, there is no reason to let him know that. It would make any chance of friendship extremely awkward, especially if it were to turn out that he liked me too.

I have a feeling he will contact me one day, although I don't know HOW I have this feeling...it's weird. It might be from what a friend of mine was saying last night. She was telling me I should pray and ask God to help me let him go. But I have already been praying that for over 2 years. Something about her saying I should pray and drop it just didn't sit right. I KNOW God is doing something here. I don't exactly know what. We may only end up friends one day. BUT, I know God is working on it. And that gives me peace, and I no longer need to focus on this or spend time worrying about how it will all work out. AHHHH...the end of a long worrysome time is FINALLY in sight!!! :) PRAISE GOD!!!!

This will be my very last post about him, btw, until when and if he contacts me. :) I am deleting all my posts about him `cuz again, I don't want him to stumble across this and know that I liked him. I'm figuring some of you will stop reading my diary because my regular life might be a tad boring...but oh well. ;)

4:02 PM- After I posted this entry, I went to check my email...and I had gotten an email from another guy I have not seen, nor talked to in the last 2 years! This guy also did not have my email address before, and I used to talk to him even less than HIM- He contacted me through my site!!! It is as if God is telling me, "SEE?!? It CAN happen!!! Just trust me!! And wait on ME for things to happen! When you are ready, it will." Is God good or what, to take the time to give me a simple reminder?!?

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